You know... Sometimes you just get to be in a bad mood? Grumpy, cranky, irritable, liable to snap at someone for the slightest thing.... I get those moods once in a while... It almost seems like something that's unavoidable.... All the books tell me that if I keep a positive mindset then this shouldn't happen, or if it does happen then focus on the positive things... It's great advice, advice I've used many times when speaking to others... But why is it that when you get in these moods you just seem to have the mind that you don't want to be "positive"? I mean, when you're in one of these moods, it's easy to turn around and say "feeling positive is more enjoyable, more fun, and all around a better feeling." but then in the same breath you can turn around and say, "but I don't wanna" or "It's too much work to do that..." ... When is it that it stops being work to be happy? Why is it that practice is so important for maintaining a positive outlook if this is supposed to be the way that we are naturally? Could it really be that we are slaves to our minds so much that even when we're "doing so good at staying happy" that it comes along and sabotages our feelings just because it wants to? Just because it wants you to remember that you still have a mind?

To search implies that there is something to find, but when we are at One with the Universe, then we have already come to understand that there is nothing that is lost, as it is all a part of who we are....

That being said, I'm still searching for that aspect of myself.